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I've got so much to say, but can you hear me? at 7:15 PM

I got carried away.
I can only put it this way to make myself feel better.
But what I truly meant is, I'm really sorry.
Whatever it turns out to be, I'm really sorry.
I'm so sorry.

I realised I'm a coward who often uses fate as an excuse.
Sometimes it's too hard for me to acknowledge my mistakes & the nasty consequences of my actions, and I always tend to put the blame on fate in order to convince myself that it wasn't my fault.
Afterall I am powerless to control the outcomes.
What a total failure am I to only escape from problems.

Suddenly, I thought of the pieces of the past.
Now thinking back & comparing, it kind of disheartens me to see some nice people evolving into someone they never were, and on the other hand people that aren't very good to start with already are getting from bad to worse.
Time do make a lot of difference, doesn't it.

Ah, emoemoemoemoemoemo today.
I found out that if you take a step back, you will view the entire situation in another perspective, rather than being too absorbed in yourself.
Because when I took a step back today, I realised something I have never realised.
Lols, why am I acting in this manner, am I possessed or what.
Oh well, anyway I failed to find the chicago cheescake, thus I went to try a slice of new york cheesecake somewhere else, and unfortunately it was too much for my tastebuds, I prefer japanese light cheesecakes, hehs. :D