Love you enough to let you go

Remember to smile at 12:25 AM

Lol, second post of the day. I hate it when I'm feeling like this, where have my peaceful life gone to? It's now in a mess, and I guess this chaos won't go away in a long long time. I am so confused, I wanna cry. Fuck, where has the tough Brenda gone to? But for the sake of everyone, I have to face this myself. I'm not gonna drag any innocent party in, not my friends, not my family. Seriously, just come against me only, I started all these shit, don't use the people around me to hurt me. I'm not talking big here 'cause honestly speaking I am also afraid. But it's a good thing, 'cause I never thought I could be this brave..

For the past months, I have been trying very hard to not let this issue affect me, but this is getting out of control. What the hell do you want? Please stop changing your stand, forgive me or hate me just make up your mind. If your ulterior motive is to wreck my life upside down then congratulations you have fucking made it. Why can't you move on with your life instead of trying to ruin mine? How am I now has nothing to do with you already. Kill me if it makes you feel better, I live to die anyway, I'm waiting. I just wanna get this nonsense over and done with. We're just wasting everybody's time.

I am so tired................

Hi there, I'm kokonut, a girl very doubtful of human nature. I'm an extremely impulsive buyer and my amazing appetite knows no limits (so proud of it). I'm a violent ninja & gets paranoid all the time for nothing. I've got some issues with social awkwardness and sometimes, I'm so blunt it turns people off. I can be really really demanding but I really really don't care, so sorry about that. You have the rights to not accept this shit but too bad it's an essential part of me. Get over it.